Lessons From An Airplane Napkin

an ending
overused, and doesn't five full meaning
to the pains of my heart.
It only made sens
became real
after they got the offer
then the tears came.

A never ending stream
of God-forsaken tears.
day after day.
with only a minute's reprieve.
The salty wetness
trying to fill the lonliness which these endings
so many endings
close calls
and not-so-neatly tied up things
have left.

My final trip home
to the plank which documented my height
beginning when I was first
brought there.
To the games
the scraped knees
and the standing in the middle of the street
after dark
just talking
for hours.
and where an ending
had it's first kiss
and endless laughter
smiles unending.
And still, loneliness seeking tears.

Skies full of dancing colors
lightning behind the mountains to the right
sunsets to the left
and eclipses behind sister's tree
which was next to the spider tree.
A brown living room
where I mimicked her dancing.

nightmares and dreams
hopes and fears
the end of a place
which holds so many
beginnings
things I long to forget
and things I carry with me
in my notebook
wherever I go.

An ending
bringing about the freshness of mind
of something exciting
and new
something which reminds you
that it's not really an ending at all.